Waiting for Willmael Delgado

Since the beginning there is a fact that no matter how hard she try to buried she can't hide I'm your mother you came from me there is a bond that she is been trying to extinguish she may think she have but there is a little ambert in your heart that knows that I'm your mother and I love you beyond words I also know that you are trying to survive in her narcissist world so you must comply and that is not easy I know that you are trying to deal with all that you not yet fully understand but keep holding on time will soon be in our side I know you will for always have some permanent damage because the fears she have imprinted on you but don't be afraid my baby boy and know you are deeply Love and miss and that I will always be here for you when you need me Love mom     

I wake up this morning with your little sister next to me she must jump in bed to wake me up, morning routine start I make a habit of thanking God for another day of life, Hygiene then breakfast, as I sit here in my kitchen drinking a hot cup of coffee looking thru the window to the outside where the leafs are falling and now I can see the small pond in the back is a beautiful site and I think of you I wonder if you love the fall with all the colors there is so many things I want to know about you many conversations we need to have even the daily ones like how was school? Or what you did today? Those are the questions that will let me know who you are what you like how you respond to different situations who your friends are ? There's lots of questions I have I can just imagine the ones you have when you are set and ready I be here my baby boy i'm here for you I think of you every day you are a part of me one of the wonderful gifts God have allowed me to bring to this world lov...