Thinking of you

I wake up this morning with your little sister next to me she must jump in bed to wake me up, morning routine start I make a habit of thanking God for another day of life, Hygiene then breakfast, as I sit here in my kitchen drinking a hot cup of coffee looking thru the window to the outside where the leafs are falling and now I can see the small pond in the back is a beautiful site and I think of you I wonder if you love the fall with all the colors there is so many things I want to know about you many conversations we need to have even the daily ones like how was school? Or what you did today? Those are the questions that will let me know who you are what you like how you respond to different situations who your friends are ? There's lots of questions I have I can just imagine the ones you have when you are set and ready I be here my baby boy i'm here for you I think of you every day you are a part of me one of the wonderful gifts God have allowed me to bring to this world love my boys and my girl.

Love                          xoxoxo.  mom

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