is not easy to deal with the feelings
For a while now I have been felling a little better, I smile more I'm sad less and my fear and depression have gone down Yes I say depression that sad feeling that feel like you can never get out of like quick sand. Because yes I have a life and things are good but when you always wondering about how your child is doing what he is feeling and missing you have had me drawing in sorrows is not hard to find myself that way,some other days I'm mad at myself, at my mistakes that cost me so much. some days it when numb and I walk like a zombie not concentrating and nothing and never the less the emotional eating trying to feel better. But now I have not had a crying spell in weeks and even do I feel sad when I think of how you doing and how much I miss you it doesn't over take me in a eternal gloom. I have pick up books and read them I have stop eating when I'm sad , anxious or angry. I feel with more energy not dragging my feed in a vague effort to keep going with the flow ...