Waiting for Willmael Delgado

This have been a journey ever since I lost you. I have my downs and ups and and my very rock bottoms and up again. Living with out you is like missing something vital, is like having a handicap heart never allowing my self to fill fully happy even when everything around me almost fill my life with Joy.  I think you will understand when you have your own kids. How truly love at first site work how each of those lives imprint to your how you will always want to do the best but in that prospective you will make mistakes hey it happens to ones more then others, kids don't come with manuals life don't come with introductions for a perfect life ether, i think is a survival to adjust to challenges fight for what we need and pray for the things we can not understand or control. I love you that all i know whether you do or not can't change this feeling i just need to adjust and pray.I wish i cut keep fitting but i guess we need to be in the same page a this point you have to say hey...

Another season have pass and an other start just reminding me how fast time is passing how you much you have grown just next season you be 12 years old closer to being a teen oh man getting taller more handsome i hope school is going good and you have lots of good friends i hope you are in good health too thriving on sports and fun activities i will keep my prayers for you always i have say this like a million times but  i will say it again i miss you and i wonder about you and i always you have my forever love                                                                                                                           I love you,  mom

  Missing your child is a every day thing for parents that have been alienated for their child. I remember telling my son's Guardian ad Litem Why his grandmother is so afraid to let me have a relationship with my son? Why she dough on his capacity to love? It's been a couple of years since the judge rule again having visitations with my son and now I understand that she was not afraid of my son capacity to love but her capacity of  her love for him to love him enough to share him love him enough to say I'm your grandmother not your mother  love him enough to let him find out by himself who his mother really is. I live my life missing my child but she lives hers afraid of the truth, fearing that God will light up the eyes and the mind of my child to understand fearing  that God will clean the poison she have administrated for years. In this few days I have to come to the point Where I Live this in God hands all the worries all the pain all I will forgive all does that...