the greving never ends

  Missing your child is a every day thing for parents that have been alienated for their child. I remember telling my son's Guardian ad Litem Why his grandmother is so afraid to let me have a relationship with my son? Why she dough on his capacity to love? It's been a couple of years since the judge rule again having visitations with my son and now I understand that she was not afraid of my son capacity to love but her capacity of  her love for him to love him enough to share him love him enough to say I'm your grandmother not your mother  love him enough to let him find out by himself who his mother really is. I live my life missing my child but she lives hers afraid of the truth, fearing that God will light up the eyes and the mind of my child to understand fearing  that God will clean the poison she have administrated for years. In this few days I have to come to the point Where I Live this in God hands all the worries all the pain all I will forgive all does that have hurt me and pray they find there why to God I will live my life and wait on God he who knows my hearth and I will take my power back by saying I forgive all does who rejoice in my pain I forgive all who hurt me I forgive you and i will pray to God to be merciful of does who hurt me.



                                                                                            I"M FREE






                                                                          LOVE YOU WILLMAEL

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