Waiting for Willmael Delgado

Today is your Holiday We celebrate you coming to our lives You are one chunk of my hearth I pray for God to guide every single step you take. You are becoming a young adult so fast i bet you are getting some little facial air and your voice is even dipper. I imagine your handsome face with a big smile. Remember We love you no matter what We love you because you are you and their is no one like you as unique as you. You or any of my  other children need to fill any mold but your because you are your own individuals. You all fit well in my hearth and fill it up to the top.                                                                                     Have a extraordinary day is your day your holiday    Love Mom

I have started  the process for visitation and modification of last order in court wish it was that i need to wait until you want to make contact with me.I have been waiting for a while and i will wait  for you until the end of my days, but i realize there was no safe haven for you if you decide to do so .  I wanted to create ways for  if you wanted at any time you will be at constable  way to say I'm ready and that  you won't have any reciprocation,guilt, stress or feelings like  you have to chose between people I know you have the capacity to love and care for all your family. I will never be mad at you for what you have to do or say in order of make things better in the position you"re in "SURVIVAL MODE" and I know I have cause you some discomfort when I try and try again but there is no way of me  to know that you know I'm waiting and will be continue to be here for you that this love will never stop YOU ARE LOVE I want you to always know that...

I hope you want to at list get to make your own mind about me about your family there is a lot of things you will learn from us and us about you if we can have the chance to get to know each other sometimes you need to experience things before you make your mind gives us a chance

I love you and i can't give up trying to have a relationship with you i can't

Im trying to get my ducks in a row to see where life is taking us i will love to know about you and how you feel Willmael i miss you so much and i want you to talk personaly with you to see if we can work in our relationship you can call me my phone still the same or email me @ dulcemaru79@GMAIL.COM YOUR CASE NUMBER IN SPRINGFIELD FAMILY COURT IS 03P2417 YOU CAN GET INFO THERE TOO  LOVE YOU ALWAYS MOM

Time is cruel sometimes missing you is a constant feeling, but remembering you your face your voice is vague even when I know those things have change that your baby face is lowly going and your voice is changing the things i knew you like have change you are becoming a young boy a teen missing you is the hardest thing i endure in my day to day not knowing how you are doing Ike my soul and praying is my only comfort  May God bless you and send and Angel to watch over you always i love you MOM

Today while talking about how people who have been hurt build walls around them i end up talking about you about how angry i was at everything at the world at justice at how can someone cut be so cruel and how pain got me not trusting anyone, isolated , hurt how i have to go separated myself from the world and slowly start over one step at the time how i don't blame you for the steps you have to take to make  your world ok i know how things are and how ugly things can get but know i love you i think of you everyday you are in my prayers and in this house you are a part of us we will never erase you we are here for when you ready  love mom  

happy new year my love may God bless you guide you today and always i will keep you in my prayers