i not about who wins or lose is about Willmael

I have started  the process for visitation and modification of last order in court wish it was that i need to wait until you want to make contact with me.I have been waiting for a while and i will wait  for you until the end of my days, but i realize there was no safe haven for you if you decide to do so .  I wanted to create ways for  if you wanted at any time you will be at constable  way to say I'm ready and that  you won't have any reciprocation,guilt, stress or feelings like  you have to chose between people I know you have the capacity to love and care for all your family. I will never be mad at you for what you have to do or say in order of make things better in the position you"re in "SURVIVAL MODE" and I know I have cause you some discomfort when I try and try again but there is no way of me  to know that you know I'm waiting and will be continue to be here for you that this love will never stop YOU ARE LOVE I want you to always know that I'm sorry I have put you thru this I really do, my hearth feel your pain while reading the interview paper.So when someone get close to me to say that will never happen other than have call the person  ignorant I also said this is not about you or me winning this is about WILLMAEL and him winning for him to know he is wanted love miss and though off  always  that there is no choosing wish side is about loving the only thing i want  to get to know you and that you are love  for who you are. with said i will say it again i love you and i will be here ready for when you are.....


                                                                                            love MOM 

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