Waiting for Willmael Delgado

every day that past i miss you i'm going to find a way to tell you i love you miss you and i will always be here for you no matter to who say i can't

I was walking to the store an looking at customes and wonder what you wanted to be these year but that an every day thing for a long time i wonder how you are how you feel what you like i wish i can talk to you but for now i just wait and write so i don't go crazy for not being close to you

after the judge have decided that any contact have to be stated by my son as i exit from in front of the judge i said faith is the last thing you lose when you trying to be there for your child and i have faith in my God in the love he have show me and i pray always for unserstanding as of why this persone have taken upon her to separated a mother from her child. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5  It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6  Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7  It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 i know that God can be fool like any man have been fool God sees everything and the final judgement will be done by him i belive God will give us justice in his time

I love you an there is not distance there is not people there is nothing that can change that i love you since before i meet you and i will always will be here to listen to you to be there when you need me to love you with out any conditions

When I sing custody to your paternal grandmother things where not right in a lot of ways I had some money problems I was not making ends met and the relationship with your father was not good I had post partum depression but true all this relationship with your grandmother Marilyn was good and when I feel like I cut not  deal with things the way they where I was seriously considering taking my father help and go to W.I. I told your grandmother Marilyn she say that she will help and to stay because she didn't wanted to lose another grandkid  she told me to give custody of you so the welfare department will give her money to help with dippers formula etc. I shut it listen to my heart but I didn't wanted you to be private for your essential needs so I make her promise that when I get my on my feet I will have the custody back and she promise on her father who she say it was the person she muse love  right there I shut it know because the person Maril...

For at least 9 years i have been on and off getting therapy and help to deal with the sadness and the emptiness of not being able to be there for you, the feeling of failing  you because i let your grandmother make me believe that this was only temporary until i get back on my feet because it was the best thing to do so you didn't have to have necessities but not even long it toke to stop being nice and for this nightmare to begin and for my sorrows to take over i miss you always