Is not easy to live missing you.

For at least 9 years i have been on and off getting therapy and help to deal with the sadness and the emptiness of not being able to be there for you, the feeling of failing  you because i let your grandmother make me believe that this was only temporary until i get back on my feet because it was the best thing to do so you didn't have to have necessities but not even long it toke to stop being nice and for this nightmare to begin and for my sorrows to take over i miss you always

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