The good the bad and the ugly

Hello my dear baby boy, I have open and close this blog many times try to write but is hard when I think of you this moments or better said in this change of season fall always mark an other year of not seeing you not even hearing your voice. It doesn't not matter the years it always hard missing a love one but in the mist of the waiting I pray to God to hear the mothers prayer for her child. Faith is the glue  that make my heart not to fall in to pieces. I pray for strength to  over come the things I can not understand why or how there is people that wanted to take us apart and then i think there is not understanding of the why in a mind of a narcissistic person i will get lost just to find one. So i just pray to God to interfere in your hearth to give straight to give you curiosity to give you understanding and wisdom to define what are the things that really happen.There is a lot of people out there like you and me taken apart there is a good chance that when you grow up you come for answers for all your questions to hear the other story the one they tray so much to hush. But i have been preparing my self for the worse also because is have been years of alienation on the works. I hope that the story of my grandfather and my great grand father don't repeat in this generation again. It was a great sadness to the families for years and even when he find out he always miss him it was to late he father was gone the father he always wanted to know and love and connect was push away for dislikes on families that it is the most cruel thing someone who is suppose to love you and protect you can do. i wonder all the time how you are how you feel how much have you grown if you like the same things or not i wonder if you remember me the few moments we had i believe that when you're ready you will come