what about me!!!

I have been ask or told ,you want to take him from me. I have take that to consideration since before you where born she ask me not to go with my family to move away from the bad relationship with your father so I can move close to my father and get his support with my kids from family. Your grandmother Marilyn participated in appointments, preparations for your arrival and even birth. I made her part of it because no matter what she is your grandmother in a lots of moments she have been re affirm even if the relationship with her son was to concluded i didn't have no intentions of not letting her in your life the same as my two oldest family they always knew where i was and how to  get in contact  with them always. She knows i don't know how to be that kind of way and she toke advantage of it now i ask myself she ask for consideration but where was mine when i ask to give my baby to me to let me see you to let me have a relationship with you i lost my mind when she toke you and didn't return my calls she legally kidnap my baby and i did meter how i feel who i ask for help how hard and long i try you where taken from me i have sing those papers and even if i was promise for her father that is the thing she most love that she will give custody back after i can get a job was not like that and for being so naive and ignorant i pay everyday i don't see you it hurts but at list i have learn how to live with this pain for my sake and the sake of all my other love ones. Not knowing have hurt me but it built me stronger it make me get up in the morning and say thank you God for another day of life and i wait  for you for your brothers and your sister for my parents and my siblings  for all the people that love us both and is waiting  to know you and love you




My child was taken from me  did anyone have think about that i lack  of relationship with the child God let me give birth  and i'm a stranger to him and yet i have to keep considering their feelings just because of you because you are what matters to me the paradox of my life 

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