fush them

My first years in this journey I was trying so hard to be what ever the grandmother of my son wanted me to be but no matter what I did no mater how hard every single thing i did and do is was never right if I was living her son I was not good because I will give my son a stepdad some day if I stay with him it was in a abusive relationship that cut not be allowed to be with my son so you see I don't win . I didn't work i wasn't able to afford having my kid and i did i was going to neglecting him.If i was serious i was so gloom for him if i was to happy i was a crazy woman the where no making happy and it will never be because i'm not her but she wanted to be me my son mother instead of his grandmother.No matter what i will be always bash by her when you realize that you will understand not to stop being you because there is not pleasing. Another thing she will play everything against you if you refuse to do as exactly her step by step instructions you are a bad parent but if you do trust me she is all ready working something out like this she will say he really want this ridiculous price toy not really for a kid more for a collectible person while telling you he don't have clothes so if you buy the toy i was trying to buy him up but that not what he needs and if you don't want to buy the toy and say you want to buy him clothes because he need them she be in the other side of the phone saying if you can afford just buy him sweets pants and shirts because they are ship so she can bash you for that but no to the idea of going to the store to see what he likes same amount of money will will pay for that ridiculous toy and share some time with him while at it NO that is not possible.  So a word of advise fush them you be you real you your kid will realize no one is perfect love is not perfect  the word is not pink and there ups and down life is about living it how it comes just love your kids and forget about the rest