Waiting for Willmael Delgado

 Hello baby boy I'm happy to let you know that I'm making progress I remember when you where born and even before I was just working for agencies, selling cell phones kitchen prep so many odd jobs just to make it in 2007 when the recession was a pick and getting a job was hard I when and got my CNA license to make sure I had a job just to make it in 2018 I started as an activity assistant and now as next week I be starting my new journey as an activity Director I made it to management is been hard work and it be a new challenge but is a step up I hope you are thriving too my Love remember with hard work and strong will you can do whatever your heart desires I love you never forget that and I here for when you are ready always my number is still the same and my email address too

 At 7 months away from your 18 birthday seems like at lost a lifetime of your life hope you know I'm here just waiting on you to want to get to know your family is bigger than you think you are an uncle of 3 and I think I'm officially the shortest person in my house lol I pray for you always you are always in my heart Willmael  and I'm always here for you ready for when you are Te amo 

 The where many moments in our visitations or phone call conversation that I realized your was interfering with us building a relationship. One of the many interference was a Christmas when time 8 years ago when I have send you a PNP Christmas message she said she didn't resive it but when on to make you her own. Also the moment when we wanted to let you know  you were having a baby sister like you wanted she hang up and told you her self just not to let you have that moment with us. Also the transformer incident when she was asking me to buy  a transformer toy over 100 when she keep saying you need it clothes also so after thinking about it I decided it was best to use that money for clothes rather than the toy call her and ask to take you shopping for the clothes you need it and she keep talking on the other side on the phone " ohh that's ok you can buy him just a  sweet pants and sweet shirt from Walmart the are the cheapest" make it I sound like I didn't have ...

 Today is a bitter sweet moment you are 17 years old, you a are getting so big I bet you are so handsome looking too. But at the same time I have miss so many moments with you, smiles, happiness, tears so many things in your life. One thing is always come clear to me I love you with my all I'm and always will. I will never stop waiting for your call I still have the same number and if you ever need it you can go to Springfield family court and ask for file 03p2417 is there you also can message me at my Google email. I I'm always here for you for when you are ready but I can't do anything until you want to. Believe me I had try so many times to reach out to establish something between you and me with out interference from your Grandma. I hope you remember me and never forget I AM HERE ALWAYS FOR YOU FOR WHEN YOU NEED ME. I hope you have a wonderful birthday stay safe from this virus I will keep praying for you always                  ...

 In my moments of quiet and serenity I think of you wonder how are you doing what is going on in your life, school and what are your goals in life  This year you are going to be 17 years old time  is passing by so quickly your brother are 24 and 22 years old and your little sister is going to be 9 years old this May. You are an Uncle of 3 all JoJo's and a cousin of ufff to many lol. One thing is True we all miss you and wish you are thriving and feeling happy that is my hope where ever you are and what ever you are doing that you are well. I love you Willmael never dough that love Mom

A lot is happening last August your grandma, my Mom was diagnosed with dementia and ever since things just getting worse she is entering stage 6 of 7 and at this moment the doctor won't release her to go home because she needs 24/7 supervision most dementia patient life expectancy is 10 but your grandma have others issues that is making matters worse I have to prepare myself for what is coming but for this things one is never ready hope you are well I keep you in my prayers always know that I love you and I always will no matter what my number and email still the same reach me anytime and Springfield family court file 03 p2417 if you want to know about us

This is how this narcissistic lady work she block me from calling her so I can't make contact she keep my child life hidden  then she resurface to try to make me feel guilty of not caring to know about him to let me know something is wrong with him (and is my fault all of it ) crazy