the nightmare of my live re-live in dreams

I woke up up shaking up upset with teary eyes from a nightmare because this is not a dream. In my dream in my house your grandmother, her husband and you where having this meeting with this group of people don't know what is was beings said by your grandma but she was on front of the group her husband out back and you and this people on the chairs listening to what ever she had to say in the back of the kitchen the calendar that  I cross everyday wish  I keep looking on to and your grandmother husband just looking at me like my near existence bother him. Then you get up from the crowd and come at me to talk to me, you tell me how you hate me and how I was not there for you, how I left you I got down to your eye level and said to you, is that how you where toll all this happens, is that what you think I did, you go back and tell them they are not going to use you to hurt me anymore, that everything that comes from your mouth are words and thoughts they put in there. I will show you with my actions, so you go back and tell her she don't have that power on me no more, that I mark the days because I wait on God. You went back and you told her and she came yelling at me so mad you where never there for him I told her back no I was not allow to be there  for him. She yells again you where never there when he got sick when he was hungry in the back her husband come storming out yelling too I look at them and tell them so yes you have been there for all those thinks but you've been there too pretend that I didn't never wanted him, that i didn't care for him, that i don't worried and I didn't love him that the only reason is to get your father back to make me look like I just let go of myson and never care. I look at her husband and said to him "I'm surprise that you're taking this position", you out of all people push this on my child, your story. You living with your grandparents because you mother didn't want you. I don't know how your story came to be, but you know how I have try, you know how this came to happen and you allow my child to think I don't want him or love him when you know first hand what a heart break is to know or think  your mom did wanted you or love you. Don't try to push your story on my child, he got all angry and since this was a dream he wanted to go and put a switch on my washer (in my old house he fix the old washer switch ) but I know nothing need it to be fix I know he was angry and wanted to break something and I woke up of this nightmare and  I had to write it