yesterday was my son"s 12th birthday

Yesterday was my son's Willmael birthday, but my depression hit me hart this year not longer able to use food as comfort for the pain I have been feeling,while my body heal my hearth still hurts yet another year goes by with out a world of you. It's have been a rough week I find my self hitting in my room for most of the day trying to get distracted  this time of the year is always hart to cope with the hearth hake of missing a love one meditation and prayers help me most of the day yesterday. As you age you learn that there is people that you can't never let go even if there are gone or far away this specials human beings that have touch your soul and can't never been forgotten. As yesterday you are 12 years old you must be become a young adult soon and soon 18 and as you will become and adult and eventually you will have children of your own and understand the love you feel for this gifts of God to you ,you will also will learn this is not easy task as each child is a individual of their own you will see the challenges you have to over come in order to make I hope you prepare yourself not only with the financial part of it but with the wisdom,patience and consistency this will required this I have learn in my own terms  by experience. But it's crucial that you know I'm here for when you ready for when you need me I'm your mother and I always be no matter what anyone said I love you and I'm waiting for you to let me know what I have done to you to feel the way you feel towards me and how can I do to build our relationship. With this said today I get up and will keep pushing and waiting because something i have learn about pain is not only that hurts or brakes you only, No pain makes you stronger and force you to rebuilt with stronger bases every single time and things that use to  make me break it affects me less and less as pain makes me stronger like things people will said about me have no effect what so ever what you discover they don't not matter at all in my life and i have learn they will try to use you as an amplifier to their hate but for this i'm prepare  i'm here to give you answers to all your questions when you are ready when it click and fall in place.

I love you, your brothers and sister that will never change because is decoded in my heart and soul love                                                                                                                  MoM  

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