Waiting for Willmael Delgado

This year we have been full of changes some good some bad but is the nature of life to adjust  to this and do the best of any situation. I have pray for a change on our relationship i have not give up and i don't think i will ever do. In previous years i have been on the blue side feeling like another year have past by and time was getting us more apart but i will say i feel like as you growing and become your own person we have a better chance. I have live it to God to work on in our hearths and have faith that one day you will look for answers. I will be always be here for you and you brothers and sister until  God call me to his side i will not always agree with decisions but advise forgiveness and acceptance always will be in my hearth for each of you. Your life is your journey to go thru as my life have been my journey none of my children are a extension of me but their own individuals and i have to respect that and let you all learn from your decisions i can only guide ...

yes is a boy i'm so exited a boy after all this girls and you will have a new family member soon yes total you will have a new cousin and because as we know you missing a lot a shut give you an update on pics you have a large family and you need to know who is who love you i will add up more today as the day goes along bye  love you 12/29/15 well Jasiah is here he is so tiny he was born the 23 and he is just perfect i toke me back to seen you and your brothers that tiny my heart never been the same after all your faces met mine and i feel in love a love that loves all of you no matter what a face that no matter how it change as all you grow i will always love none of you are perfect but guess what neither I'm and i love that fact you where hand pick by God to be my reason to exist and i will not wanted any other way loves my boys and my lil girl                                      ...

 In the anniversary of Sandy Hook I was remembering the days that fallow this tragedy the sadness and the pain. I also remember the question everyone was asking, why?. Weeks, months even years have past and no one will ever know what drove this individual to commit such a cruel act to this children and adults.  When listening to the conclusions of why it was believe he did it some experts said he was mentally unbalance some others that it was video games, others say he was an introverted person. It cut have been so many things but I think what made it to this big scale was that people around him family, friends or anyone who notice some of his behaviors just didn't recognize that there was an issue here that he need it help that he was screaming for help with his behavior. I think Anna's mother Nelba is doing such a Good job by creating awareness about  raising your voice to say this is not right or i think he needs help to know how to notice this issues and not just swee...

I love my mother don't get me wrong I will always love her no matter what I got to remind myself she is a person who have mental issues since forever but it's a lonely road having a mom like mine I can't not tell her everything because she will drown in a cup of water never the less what I have been going thru so there is no mom what shut I do or what your advise will be pretty much no direction from her because she is a drift herself so with that I have to live. I think that's is part of why I made so many mistakes I was desperate to belong in a place to a family  with no sense of belonging there is a  big defenseless part of myself that let the wrong people in taking advise even it it was wrong advise and guidance from what a believe was a good motherly figure to me. I was so naive and stupid and adding up lonely and lost any king of love was good for a fool like me. Yes i was 23 and yet knew nothing, if I knew what I know now. I always say this but not as often I ...

Another year pass by people keep asking if i ever give up the answer is simple no  can't give up in my kids never. They are part of me but they are their own individuals they are not not just an extension of me neither  accessorize to my life but i will always love them no matter what. For the pass years people are being trying to say you where no good you where a bad mom  when the only now so little about me. I was born in the island of Puerto Rico, the only child of a young couples marriage that only survive burly a year.I was raise in the beautiful country side of the island my mother have a studio like apartment that my grandma and grandpa have build for us. I was the only child but i wasn't,  I have seven aunts and one uncle so I had plenty to play with most of the time it was my aunt Ivonne and Oneida believe it or not i was older than Ivonne by 10 days and even older than Oneida by 2 years. we where wild child's lol climbing trees picking berries swinging from...