2015 is almost over

This year we have been full of changes some good some bad but is the nature of life to adjust  to this and do the best of any situation. I have pray for a change on our relationship i have not give up and i don't think i will ever do. In previous years i have been on the blue side feeling like another year have past by and time was getting us more apart but i will say i feel like as you growing and become your own person we have a better chance. I have live it to God to work on in our hearths and have faith that one day you will look for answers. I will be always be here for you and you brothers and sister until  God call me to his side i will not always agree with decisions but advise forgiveness and acceptance always will be in my hearth for each of you. Your life is your journey to go thru as my life have been my journey none of my children are a extension of me but their own individuals and i have to respect that and let you all learn from your decisions i can only guide you and hope for the best and hope my actions and words have made a impression on all of you and wait for life to teach you what it have to i can say from myself life have show me to be patient to listen to my guts and to love family and to forgive.well Baby Boy  i hope this new year brings you blessings and remember We love you

                                                                                    LOVE MOM

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