I love my mother don't get me wrong I will always love her no matter what I got to remind myself she is a person who have mental issues since forever but it's a lonely road having a mom like mine I can't not tell her everything because she will drown in a cup of water never the less what I have been going thru so there is no mom what shut I do or what your advise will be pretty much no direction from her because she is a drift herself so with that I have to live. I think that's is part of why I made so many mistakes I was desperate to belong in a place to a family  with no sense of belonging there is a  big defenseless part of myself that let the wrong people in taking advise even it it was wrong advise and guidance from what a believe was a good motherly figure to me. I was so naive and stupid and adding up lonely and lost any king of love was good for a fool like me. Yes i was 23 and yet knew nothing, if I knew what I know now.


I always say this but not as often I will  love and as close i love you Willmael more and more  Mom.

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