Waiting for Willmael Delgado

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 I want to wish you a Happy Birthday. I was looking in the blog and I don't see last year birthday post. September is a hard month is your birthday but is also a another one that we don't get to celebrated together. There are is a very few of those, is a bitter sweet day always. Last year was the first anniversary of your grandma Teresa but since your birthday she was on the hospital, I spend 23 days in the Hospital every day waiting for her to wake up. But changing thee conversation to a more light one. You're a Uncle for the 6th time. You have 4 nieces and 2 nephews ages ranging from 13 years to 1 month. They are so beautiful and happy kiddos. Sometimes We wonder about your life, how you're doing if you have a girlfriend, are you working, have you have your own place, are you driving, traveling. There are so many questions about you and your life that your loves ones often ask. I just hope that you're healthy, thriving, and living your best life. I miss you and wh...

 It has been a very long time since I have written anything here and is not because I didn't write anything. There are several drafts saved up here that are just not posted. There have been so many changes since the last time I wrote to you. Right after your birthday this past year, my sister called me to let me know Mom was sick in the hospital non-responsive. Little that I know September is going to get more painful for me. When my sisters call, they tell me Mom got some kind of infection that they cut not pinpoint to where the infection was located. Mom had been unconscious by the time she had arrived at the hospital and without eating for days. I book a flight to CT., for the very next day to go and be with her, she became responsive by the time I was landed in Washington airport and i talk to her facetime while waiting for my next flight to Hartford, everything looks like she was improving so i stay that night with your brother Jonathan and his family. The next morning, I pick...

 Just passing thru to wish you a very happy birthday all do we are not  near you to celebrate, every year we take a moment to wish you where ever you are all the happiness, health and wisdom you need to navigate thru life We hope you are very happy and remind you that "You" are very love and miss.  When ever you want to reach out I'm ready to answer your questions my number still the same all these years your family court docket number is 03p2417 for the phone number email and any questions that may get answer by doing your own research you can view it at any time.

Today is your birthday 11 years had past since i saw your face for the first time after a long night of labor you where finally here i was very happy you where a healthy baby boy all ten fingers and ten toes lots if black hair i fall in love with your face and today is your 11 birthday wow you soon be a teen just a couple of more years and in seven more you be 18 that is like a snap of the finger to me because just like that past the time with your oldest brothers jojo have his own life all ready with his baby mom and his daughter and Josh is working while going to school in junior year this is your last year of elementary school and things will start to take a faster paste for now just be a kid and remember that i love you and you are always on my prayers I'm here when you need me dulcemaru79@gmail.com just waiting for you HAPPY BIRTHDAY WILLMAEL I LOVE U!!

  Happy birthday Wilo May God always bless you, guide you and protect you. Your hair looks just like mine I was afraid that when I  see you I wont recognize you but you are a handsome young man. We hope one day to be there for your birthday. Emely wanted me tell you happy birthday Big Brother, she ask about you and when she will see you I told her when you are ready you will reach to us. 03p2417     that the docket number in the Springfield family court you can go there anytime my number is there and the documents are there.

I remember this weekend I left Mass and I was so happy to be out of that hole turmoil that was my life with your father, your grandma call and say they when to court and I need to go back to sort things out I shut know better not to believe their lies.   Now you are we are strangers strangers that at one time our hearts beat synchronize. Is easy for someone who had built a house of cards to separate people to keep her stories truth to remain in control. My grandma use to say el Sol no se tapa con una mano, the sun can not be hide with one hand. Is a matter of time what is in the dark will come to light. Someone who hide things don't like to be questions, don't like not having control of things. Be curious, inform your self, do your homework and make your own opinion. 03p2417 Springfield family Court read your file and all files attached to the case. My number still the same as the file and you can always reach Mr out by message here. Is time you wonder.  Love mom

Hey Baby boy! Yeah I know you are 18 going in 19 but you always be my baby. I Just wanted to let you know I think of you every day and you are in my prayers always, but today I was talking about you and how I hope one day you will reach out to me, that I keep documents, cards, diary and hope one day you reach out. I'm willing to take a lie detector if you see fit, crazy story years ago I call either the Steve Wilkos show or the Maury show and try to get your grandma to go and talk about the accusations that I hit you. She decline because she didn't speak English (she said) and I wanted to go still but without her they didn't want to do it.  I know it was a crazy idea but I was desperate to find a way that to get you back and to clear out the accusation. You where almost home the court have begging the transition for you to be with us  and she lie about that and keep you away from your family by saying I hit you and I laugh about it. Willmael I know you have been told many t...

 Today is your 18th Birthday and wish you the most wonderful birthday may God always bless you and   guide you always. I can't not believe how fast time pass since like a blink of an eye to me. and also feel  like an eternity the last time I saw you I bet your voice is not even the same dipper you are taller. Well my son I may son like a broken record but I'm still here waiting on you to want to Know me to getting to know you to give us a change to catch up to meet your big family your brothers , sister, aunties, cousins, grandparents, your nieces and nephew we are all waiting  for you wishing to meet you and to let you know we always love you and always will. All you have to do is write to me to my email dulcemaru79@gmail.com still the same and my phone number never change either Marilyn have it she text me recently to let me know about your diabetic issues and tell me that I don't care. You can also see your court case in the family court in Springfield 03p241...

 Hello baby boy I'm happy to let you know that I'm making progress I remember when you where born and even before I was just working for agencies, selling cell phones kitchen prep so many odd jobs just to make it in 2007 when the recession was a pick and getting a job was hard I when and got my CNA license to make sure I had a job just to make it in 2018 I started as an activity assistant and now as next week I be starting my new journey as an activity Director I made it to management is been hard work and it be a new challenge but is a step up I hope you are thriving too my Love remember with hard work and strong will you can do whatever your heart desires I love you never forget that and I here for when you are ready always my number is still the same and my email address too

 At 7 months away from your 18 birthday seems like at lost a lifetime of your life hope you know I'm here just waiting on you to want to get to know your family is bigger than you think you are an uncle of 3 and I think I'm officially the shortest person in my house lol I pray for you always you are always in my heart Willmael  and I'm always here for you ready for when you are Te amo 

 The where many moments in our visitations or phone call conversation that I realized your was interfering with us building a relationship. One of the many interference was a Christmas when time 8 years ago when I have send you a PNP Christmas message she said she didn't resive it but when on to make you her own. Also the moment when we wanted to let you know  you were having a baby sister like you wanted she hang up and told you her self just not to let you have that moment with us. Also the transformer incident when she was asking me to buy  a transformer toy over 100 when she keep saying you need it clothes also so after thinking about it I decided it was best to use that money for clothes rather than the toy call her and ask to take you shopping for the clothes you need it and she keep talking on the other side on the phone " ohh that's ok you can buy him just a  sweet pants and sweet shirt from Walmart the are the cheapest" make it I sound like I didn't have ...

 Today is a bitter sweet moment you are 17 years old, you a are getting so big I bet you are so handsome looking too. But at the same time I have miss so many moments with you, smiles, happiness, tears so many things in your life. One thing is always come clear to me I love you with my all I'm and always will. I will never stop waiting for your call I still have the same number and if you ever need it you can go to Springfield family court and ask for file 03p2417 is there you also can message me at my Google email. I I'm always here for you for when you are ready but I can't do anything until you want to. Believe me I had try so many times to reach out to establish something between you and me with out interference from your Grandma. I hope you remember me and never forget I AM HERE ALWAYS FOR YOU FOR WHEN YOU NEED ME. I hope you have a wonderful birthday stay safe from this virus I will keep praying for you always                  ...

 In my moments of quiet and serenity I think of you wonder how are you doing what is going on in your life, school and what are your goals in life  This year you are going to be 17 years old time  is passing by so quickly your brother are 24 and 22 years old and your little sister is going to be 9 years old this May. You are an Uncle of 3 all JoJo's and a cousin of ufff to many lol. One thing is True we all miss you and wish you are thriving and feeling happy that is my hope where ever you are and what ever you are doing that you are well. I love you Willmael never dough that love Mom

A lot is happening last August your grandma, my Mom was diagnosed with dementia and ever since things just getting worse she is entering stage 6 of 7 and at this moment the doctor won't release her to go home because she needs 24/7 supervision most dementia patient life expectancy is 10 but your grandma have others issues that is making matters worse I have to prepare myself for what is coming but for this things one is never ready hope you are well I keep you in my prayers always know that I love you and I always will no matter what my number and email still the same reach me anytime and Springfield family court file 03 p2417 if you want to know about us

This is how this narcissistic lady work she block me from calling her so I can't make contact she keep my child life hidden  then she resurface to try to make me feel guilty of not caring to know about him to let me know something is wrong with him (and is my fault all of it ) crazy 

Happy birthday Willmael you're turning 16 today I hope you got the greatest 16 birthday ever I miss you and I love you and We are here waiting for you from whenever you need us my phone in my email still the same and I really miss you much have change since the last time I saw you you are taller and handsome you just 2 years shy from 18 I feeling old lol my babies are growing to fast you are and uncle  of two girls one boy Keyshlanie Jaylanie and Jaythan  and you have a big family that is eager to get to know you and We all waiting for you We love you for all you are no less no more.             Love you Mom

Hello my dear son I wanted to share with you some pictures of the wedding and let you know I miss you there

Hello my lovely son I'm writing this as a prepare to get married in the next month I'm working in my sitting chart and putting down the names of my love one's in one table my MVP's is probably you won't be here but I will still will Held a chair for you as you take a important space in my heart mind and soul so your name be added to the table I pray to God for you every day and I hope one day you give me a chance love you always your Mother ❤️😘 dulcemaru79@gmail.com still my email

I know you getting big you must be bigger that me but (who isn't?) You where here in my dreams I guess that I way God let me celebrate with you this holiday. Yeap is a Holiday in this mom calendar is a day forever special after those nine months and ten hours of labor I finally meet you and love you even more you where so beautiful perfect baby boy and you in your mother's eyes always will be. I love you more than you imagine I know that no matter I always will                                               Love Mom