Waiting for Willmael Delgado

Hello my dear baby boy, I have open and close this blog many times try to write but is hard when I think of you this moments or better said in this change of season fall always mark an other year of not seeing you not even hearing your voice. It doesn't not matter the years it always hard missing a love one but in the mist of the waiting I pray to God to hear the mothers prayer for her child. Faith is the glue  that make my heart not to fall in to pieces. I pray for strength to  over come the things I can not understand why or how there is people that wanted to take us apart and then i think there is not understanding of the why in a mind of a narcissistic person i will get lost just to find one. So i just pray to God to interfere in your hearth to give straight to give you curiosity to give you understanding and wisdom to define what are the things that really happen.There is a lot of people out there like you and me taken apart there is a good chance that when you grow up y...

In September I get this bitter sweet feelings I sow your face and fall in love with your face September 2nd and 12 years have pass since you stay in my hearth but is also the month I last sow you 3 years ago and as that day approaches my heart wounds re-open and the sorrow and that oblivious hits harder I look at your old pics and I wonder how long more I will have to wait why I can be in your life  if you at least let me know why is it that you don't even want to see me in visitations i need your reasoning only not anyone's else. I want you to ask me questions that you may have show you pictures documents transcripts ext. I keep you always in my prayers and in my hearts love you and miss you tremendously                                                                                 ...

Yesterday was my son's Willmael birthday, but my depression hit me hart this year not longer able to use food as comfort for the pain I have been feeling,while my body heal my hearth still hurts yet another year goes by with out a world of you. It's have been a rough week I find my self hitting in my room for most of the day trying to get distracted  this time of the year is always hart to cope with the hearth hake of missing a love one meditation and prayers help me most of the day yesterday. As you age you learn that there is people that you can't never let go even if there are gone or far away this specials human beings that have touch your soul and can't never been forgotten. As yesterday you are 12 years old you must be become a young adult soon and soon 18 and as you will become and adult and eventually you will have children of your own and understand the love you feel for this gifts of God to you ,you will also will learn this is not easy task as each child is a...

hi baby boy sorry i haven write to you i just got out the hospital yesterday i had to have some surgery done but i'm feeling better by the hour i can wait to feel in tip top shape i be writing more soon i just wanted to let you know i love you sweet baby of mine

You are about to be 12 years old in less than a month almost a teenager witch is the time of finding out who you are is a very confusing time because the decisions are starting to fall in your side of the woods more and more by every year of your teens the future that look it so far its start to look closer to adulthood mistakes will be made but experience be gain learning how to trust your instincts is a must because not everyone is about your best interest but their own keep your eyes in your goals and do what makes you happy. I be prepare for maybe just being in the side lines for just knowing you are okay maybe you hate me because that how you been feed but regardless i will love you and be happy and content that you are happy i will never stop loving you praying for you i be prepare for the worse but will hope for anything you will give me i live all my worries to God he know my hearth and yours and i be here to listen to anything you want to say good or bad i take it   ...

I love it when i dream of you i was hugging you and comforting you and actually having a conversation with you, you where talking to me like we haven't miss a bit and i love it. I know it was a dream but i think is God ways to comforting me when he knows i miss you next month is your birthday Big 12 teens years are just around the corner but that also remind me how long i haven't see you i'm waiting for you my baby boy i love you miss you and pray for you to be healthy happy and growing i send all my love Mom

When a person wake up in the morning never know if that will be the last time he have waken you know the day you where born but can not say when will be your last one. If i knew i will say this not only to you but to all my loves ones i have been bless with my four wonderful children with my parents with the family i have and with the ones that have parted with God. I don't regret nothing all do i will change somethings but not my family. Life is never perfect but you just need to high light the best in it and learn for your mistakes and work in the future and i really hope there is heaven so we can make up in all the lost time if we don't have a chance in this one love you now and for ever        Mom