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my wish for you this new year 2015

 My wish for this year to have the opportunity  to ask you have I done anything that hurt you?   What i can do to make you want you to see me and your family? and What you will like me to change to make this work for you?   What will you Willmael will like to see happen so we can built a relationship? I want you to see in your heart and seek to this answers and any others you may have to sit down and listen to know what Willmael thinks about everything that is going on and how we can work to make it better i wish that 2015 brings all the answers to this questions and any others you may have.....                                                                                                           ...

Waiting for you Willmael Delgado : Well the Christmas have passed and the new year is...

Waiting for you Willmael Delgado : Well the Christmas have passed and the new year is... : Christmas are over and  it was like other Christmas are one of the most overwhelming moments of the year where anything can set the waterfal...

Well the Christmas have passed and the new year is at the horizon

Christmas are over and  it was like other Christmas are one of the most overwhelming moments of the year where anything can set the waterfalls on I avoid songs, conversations cut not avoid the walking thru the boys toys section I wanted to know so bad what will you like and think how I will delivered to you without dealing with what the judge said having no contact but even happy songs like all I want for Christmas with a up beat made me cry is hard to keep a tray face when Josh ask if I had know about you this season him hoping to get to see his baby  brother a nut goes in my throat before answering no and his head goes down I think I was not the only one being robbed of being with you brothers, sister, aunts, uncles and grandparents where too there is this hole family who got robbed of a special lil boy who ask for you and miss you or not yet had the chance to even meet you and enjoy you as you are. You are very miss not in the occasions that i write to you here  but ev...

My loving son

As the days of the Christmas approach my heart sink down into a quiet mode I know I say trout the year how much I miss you but if you only knew the felling in my heart you u understand that there are not words to express what my heart been feeling since May 31 2004 but I have to keep my head up and keep my prayer for you I believe my God will give me an answer I believe he hears a mother prayers and he knows all that is in my heart well my son I wish you a merry Christmas have a bless time I will keep you in my prayers I will keep you in my heart love mom

Christmas pass ghosts

I'm sitting here remembering the first Christmas you where not with us,  you where one year old and moths had pass since I sow you last on your birthday to all I know you where still in Puerto Rico because according to your grandma's her father was sick and she was still there and considering moving to the island to take care of him with me that didn't sit well to beginning with was the fact that custody was only given to her so I can get economic help since Josh was a cap baby your father was not helping supporting you the only help I feel I had was your grandmother and knowing I wanted to end that guardianship she say she was in P.R. I don't believe she was there all that time, neither where you was supposed to move out of state all this was happening while I was in what the therapist call the perfect storm I was in an abusive relationship with deep post partum depression isolated from friends and family and tacking advice from people that only wanted to take my child...

The biter sweet holidays

This is the time where I smile and cry when my heart rises and falls and rises again they say God hit you with one hand and caresses with the other hand well I'm waiting for his merciful hand to help us get health for this beating I miss you my boy you are in my hearts I wish I can show you but until you are ready I be here waiting love you mom

Keep the fire in your heart going

Since the beginning there is a fact that no matter how hard she try to buried she can't hide I'm your mother you came from me there is a bond that she is been trying to extinguish she may think she have but there is a little ambert in your heart that knows that I'm your mother and I love you beyond words I also know that you are trying to survive in her narcissist world so you must comply and that is not easy I know that you are trying to deal with all that you not yet fully understand but keep holding on time will soon be in our side I know you will for always have some permanent damage because the fears she have imprinted on you but don't be afraid my baby boy and know you are deeply Love and miss and that I will always be here for you when you need me Love mom     

Thinking of you

I wake up this morning with your little sister next to me she must jump in bed to wake me up, morning routine start I make a habit of thanking God for another day of life, Hygiene then breakfast, as I sit here in my kitchen drinking a hot cup of coffee looking thru the window to the outside where the leafs are falling and now I can see the small pond in the back is a beautiful site and I think of you I wonder if you love the fall with all the colors there is so many things I want to know about you many conversations we need to have even the daily ones like how was school? Or what you did today? Those are the questions that will let me know who you are what you like how you respond to different situations who your friends are ? There's lots of questions I have I can just imagine the ones you have when you are set and ready I be here my baby boy i'm here for you I think of you every day you are a part of me one of the wonderful gifts God have allowed me to bring to this world lov...

Happy Halloween baby blue!!!

Hope you have fun get lots of candy enjoy your day is been years since we last trick or treat together I Wish I cut go with you soon enough you be saying your to big for it and just want to go to a party well  baby boy to  me you will always be my baby                                                        love MOM

The who mom

I feel like the whos in whosville saying I'm here I'm here about to reach 4,000 views wondering if you ever know I write to you that I'm here Willmael and my hope is that you know you are love and very miss by your family that no matter how they try to get us apart I will keep trying to reach to you. I even try to live a message to who I call the king of blogs shaycarl to see if he will send out a message to you the we live you and miss you and to create awareness that parental alienation is real and that it shut be better help for parents and children there is so many out there living without child just because, that shut not be acepted by family court with this said I want to finish by saying I LOVE YOU BABY BOY *LOVE MOM

My Take on Parental Alienation from Personal Experience

My Take on Parental Alienation from Personal Experience

This is the best description of an alienator

http://karenwoodall.wordpress.com/2014/10/25/i-am-the-alienator/

I have hope

The more I read or hear testimonies of people that have go thru parental  alienation the more hope I get that the child who have become an adult becomes very aware of the campaign and manipulation they encounter that they where given a hatred command toward the parent that opinions where created not made that when it became clear they open up toward what was going how fear and control was the key for the alienation and how little the courts, appointed lawyers and social Services know about it or how to fight or prevent this form of abuse . One thing is clear there is hope after seeing how this formers kids look for  the parent and try to make sence of this they stand up and push back and I will keep writing I keep praying waiting while I may not be allowed in your life that don't mean you are not allowed in my heart I love you and that no one can change it. Love mom

Dear son

One thing i will líke to say is I'm far from perfect i have made many mistakes and along the way learn many lessons fall down got up but never stop trying never stop praying never lose faith I have lose so many trials done by man but I put things in God hands he who have seen everything where there is not words to prove what been done because he have seen it all he was there front row My Lord will guide us when dark and will bring to the light to the truth and will no leave any bad deed go unponish I live without you by my side every day but you always in my heart and in my prayers distance will never make me stop loving you You are one of the persons in wish u my heart beats for and until it stop beating I will love you

My baby blue

As time passes my only joy is the occasional news from you I live like mosses mother that from far I observed missing you terribly but never stopping this love for you I know that God listen to a mother's prayer and in him I wait and I know he listen and answers my prayers love mom

This week is dreams have been all about you

I love when i dream of you your black hair your sweet face we are so close but yet so far i love you boy you are with me in my heart and im with you in prayers que Dios te bendiga te cuide y te guie por buen camino

Well we are at the corner to be October

I wish i know what you wanted to be this Halloween go looking for that perfect costume go apple picking hey rides are a most and apple cider and donuts and fall fest well honey I'm here just waiting for you love and pray for you. Mom

Another year have pass by

I still remember like yesterday September 22, 2012 the last time i sow you i didn't  see you for your birthday as usual another alienation trick that year by year your grandma uses well i wanted to plan something when you came back from Puerto Rico so i call to see if i cut take you apple picking by the time she call me back was pass almost 3 and she was all the way up on Belmont opposite side of where we need it to go she said paying a bill so we just end up eating tacos like always she go me anything to make it look good on her corner and bad on mine well year number 2 but know this baby boy i love you more than yesterday i wait for you until my last breath. Love Mom

I hope that what they say is true

A survey say people Google them self at list one a year i hope friends do to or girls someone will see this and tell you about it

When i think of you

I go to the beach a lot sitting on a rock with the wind on my ears the smell of the ocean i think of you i remember feeling you inside me kicking in the hot summer day i use to take fresh water baths to cool down and every time you use to be all over the place i spend all summer sleeping in the couch and i use to watch  baby story  eat cherries and green apples and peanut butter wondering about your face and then i sow you oh to hold you like that first time to hold you and never let go of you to feel your heart like that very first time i wish that things would not have happened the way they did but they did  and I'm sorry for not being in my right mind for trusting people i nearly knew with your care  for not being able to get you back home n matter how hard and many times for nor being able to tell you how much i love you and how much you mean to me i try to see why God let this happen what he is trying to teach us sometimes i try to stand back and look at the gra...

Here comes September again

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with fall in the horizon

Hello wilo yet another season is about to come to an end this fall will be the thrird year i don't see your handsome face yet i know about how tall are you i know that your face resambles my face people walk and see you and knows you are my boy i know you are having behavior problems or maybe your grandma is still trying to get you to get ssi but you don't need that the problem lies in you yet not having a voice and having to walk in eggshells because you never know what can upset her is not easy living with a narcisitic parent and i want you to know i'm here i have been push out of your life but im here in the sidelines waiting for you to tell me you want my help and i be there. In another note the new school year is coming i know this will be your last year in elementary and before you know it you will be in middle school time flies your little cousin Arieliz is going to kinder garden josh is going to junior year and Emy to headstart nice ha i love you and i miss you...

And i'm back

Sorry baby boy we have move and i have not write but we are back on business i wish you see our new place you will like it never the less is time to start getting ready for school and what you want to accomplish out of your last year in elementary school and i ask myself if you still want to be a cdl truck driver or you have change your mind is ok to explore new carriers because you don't want to be stock in a Job you hate and  i  just want you to know I love you and i miss you and i wish i can see you but in to you are ready i have to wait i don't have any other options but in God i wait.                                                                                                               ...

your brothers and niece

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Hellooo wilo here some pics of your brothers and your niece so you can see them we love you always know that!!!!

here is july and i miss you more

i can't even see you never the lest ask for you to come have a picnic or fly a kite ride a bike or just lay in a hammock to talk and catch up with what is going on with you remember baby boy i can't make contact with you until you reach out for me I don't know what where the reasons for you to say you wish not to see me(nether your therapist) after a nearly a year just fighting in court to have visitations with you but i'm here i'm always here waiting for you to reach i always check emails to see if you are ready i love you since day one i fall in love with you my lil butterball and i still love you baby boy i will always love you until my heart stop beating   

hello my big boy i must say

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You have been growing my little Faruko alike that how your haircut looks like you have my black Indian hair my eyebrows and eyelashes even my chicks my mini me I can see me on your face hope you are well my son sorry i have not write for a little bit i just need to get a lots of things settle lately and I have been under the weather Don't know what it is but hope is nothing but in the bright site I have my boys and my little girl of two summer vacations  hoping you have fun but  & wishing  we cut  had some fun but maybe one day we can go and have an adventure to remember together here are some pics for you the first one are your great grandparents from my mother’s side and you little sister. I have to upload more pics of your nice Keyshlanie and JoJo and Josh but i do it later until then I send all my love to you and I keep you in my prayers so an Angel always keep you safe love mom .

i love knowing about you

I feel so happy you have grown so much and tomorrow i celebrate at least i know of you baby boy i'm so happy i love you wilo

ups and downs

Some days are Good and some others are not so good i want to keep going and live a life even thru i miss you everyday i have lots of other good things going on in my life that are good there is days like yesterday that sadness and missing you really hits and i don't want to get up a just want to stay here and think there is  a lot of things i'm missing and i'm not happy about it then i get up because i'm not going to let this people have a hold on me just because they're in control of you for now and then i think soon you be a teen this  next year you be 12 omg time is flying next thing i know you be like your brother all grown making decisions and cucucachu out of the nest well i have miss lots of things but if you let me be in your life i be catching up the love is here baby boy for when you are ready i love you and miss you                                          ...

school is ending soon

Almost done with this school year my sweet baby boy I hope you have make much progress from last year and that academically you are succeeding and learning all you are going to need to be a man of good i hope you are starting to think what you want to be when you grow up a little more i wish i can talk to you and observe what you like best and what are your dislikes i hope you are doing some kind of sport  too they say swimming help develop the lugs more specially if you still have asthma never the less whatever you do always try your best. I know i say this all the time but I'm going to say it again I LOVE YOU and I miss you every day you are a part of me of my heart and not knowing is not easy and i need to let you know i'm waiting for you to contact me i can't do it because a court order but you can i'm here i'm here my baby boy just waiting.                                       ...

We shut be close

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Emely was looking at the picture on the wall and say this is JOJO this is JOSHUA and look at me and i ask WHO IS HIM I TOLD HER YOU ARE HIS OLDER BROTHER WILO is hard to acknowledge you guys are like stranger I'm a stranger to your life and we mean so much in it we are your family your Mother your brothers and your sister I don't understand why Springfield Court don't see the separation there is being made how little they know about You to just say " is unfortunate that the child take the position he does we don't know why but he does not wish to see you" That is parental alienation 101 a family living like we are not related for not good reason that is not for the best interest of the child Springfield Court have Fail my son and his siblings. 

To move or not to move

I have been having some technical difficulties with the blogger publishing but never the less here i'm my lovely boy How do i move on there some plans but shut i wait for you to contact me first i think it be better to want before taking any other step. Now i know why the parents of kidnap children don't want to leave the place where it happened or remind close is the hope the one day the child return or hear news about their where about at least i know you are alive and physically well  this is one piece of paper have done make it legal for them to take you away from me to feed you lies about the reasons and to make distance between us what kind of heartless persones just take away a child from his mother to say is only temporary help and just take off but i believe in God the God that sees all the one who teach us about right and wrong and in his divine justice i live it to him he knows what is in my heart. I miss you i want to give you all the hugs and the kisses i have o...

I'm here

Wilo a lot is being going i wish i can talk to you and tell you all about it. I miss you so much i wish to see you but i can believe how things have turn out to be never the less while i wait for you i keep going with things as plan remember this always i'm here for you i always have i always will no matter what they do remember the judge said i have to wait until you make the initial contact so when you are ready i be there. I hope school is good i hope you are good i was looking at one of the pics of  visitation in the ywca you were just getting to visitation running to me smiling i miss those days te amo papi!!! y no one can't get between us not forever mi abuela decia no hay mal que dure 100 anos ni cuerpo que lo resista!   i love you baby boy!!!                                                                 ...

3001 views I hope you get so see this

whao!!! baby boy 3001 views in your page and yet i don't even know if you the reason i made this blog have seen it yet. I hope you have that way you know how much i think about you everyday the other day i sow a transformer ride and thod of you and how much you would like to go in it. The other day i was looking at the sky and it was as blue as your favorite color.I really miss you every day i hope one day  you understand that i wanted and i try as hard i cut to be there for you and that no matter where i'm i be waiting for whenever you ready whenever you need me know I"m your mother and i love you no matter what until you are ready baby boy                                                                                                  ...

well hello

It's have been a little while since i wrote to you i went to visit your great grandpa in Puerto Rico oh i feel so good to hug him and it was years since we last so each other almost 15 years but the love still was there you see when you love one time will never matter love is always there and i was away  but still think of you and what i big part of me you are the love is there just like the love of my grandpa and the love of my grandma she is not with us but i know that one day i will feel that love again. it's not always easy to understand how time times changes everything especially when you lose a love one but love the real love is patient and overcomes time space and matter. I hope you are in good health i hope you are happy. i miss your smile my sweet  boy i was looking at the old pics i have from you to help me cope with not seeing you i love you i will never get tired of saying this to you i love you no matter who try to stop this i will always be here for you loving ...

i had another dream with you

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I dream that you have come to my house you wanted to see me i my heart feel happy in the dream you were like the last time i seen you playful but with questions in the dream also was your grandmother i ask her again why she don't let me be your mother why she keep trying to make us strangers to give me a reason i woke up before she got to say anything but in real life this are questions that i ask myself everyday. in the high note my hearts always feel Happy when i dream of you i give thanks to God to allow me to at list see you and feel you like real in my dreams. Spring is here another season gone and i still miss you I love you Willmael.   love mom   

Dear baby boy

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I just want to say I love you and I miss you tremendously my insides are over flowing with the things I want to say to you with the hugs and feeling I keep inside me in silence because they have take my voice my  rights and a part of me I pray to God for justice, for understanding, for peace while I wait for God divine plan to unfold. I don't understand why this is happening to us i hope one day we can make sense of this. I hope one day you forgive me for putting my trust in the wrong person for my ignorance. I want you to know that your entire family loves you and we wait for you don't you ever feel alone because we are here for you and we always will.                                                                                               ...

Waiting for you Willmael Delgado : Hello my lovely son:It's cold outside and i can ...

Waiting for you Willmael Delgado : Hello my lovely son: It's cold outside and i can ... : Hello my lovely son: It's cold outside and i can wait for the spring to come,times goes by and seasons begins and ends before we know...

It's cold

Hello my lovely son: It's cold outside and i can wait for the spring to come,times goes by and seasons begins and ends before we know it but i want you to know that i'm here for you always waiting even when you don't see me I'm here to have your back whenever you're ready this love for you never goes off because you are part of me. I wish i can talk to you a lot of things are changing and there is more changes to come but never the less whenever you need me i be there you can write to me anytime i'm always here it will alert my phone. Basically i always  want to be in your life but that door was shut so when you decide you are ready i be here. I love you be sure of that.                                                                    love mom                 ...

Waiting for you Willmael Delgado : Day by day i think of you

Waiting for you Willmael Delgado : Day by day i think of you : I see you every time I go by a place We have been and when I see the color baby blue or when watching spongebob with your sister or when I ...

Day by day i think of you

I see you every time I go by a place We have been and when I see the color baby blue or when watching spongebob with your sister or when I see my face because you are a part of me, you know I still have have that leprechaun button you give for saint patrick i see you when i dream, i pray for you and i ask God to keep you safe i hope you are happy i hope you think of your family I can't forget you as you are a part of me a gift from God i was blessed by being your mother this love can endure time and be patient i never will give up i will always be waiting the minute you say you are ready i be here just waiting for you .                                                                                                           ...
Dear Willmael: There is no words to express the intensity in wich i miss you day to day. There is a lots of things i don't understand and i bet there is a lots of things you don't either. Like the fact that i'm your mother and we are becoming stranger for each other like the fact that are not allow to talk about me without making people upset to me is frustrating no being able to talk to you to find out what you like  what you don't like who are your friends how you doing in school what you favorite thing to do that makes you happy  there so many things i will like you to ask me I wish i have a picture of you to tell Emy that your other big brother.You know no matter what is the distance that divide us you can just contact me and i be there whenever you are ready i'm here with your love waiting for you                                                ...

Waiting for you Willmael Delgado : Dear Willmael; I want to let you know that i'm en...

Waiting for you Willmael Delgado : Dear Willmael;  I want to let you know that i'm en... : Dear Willmael;  I want to let you know that i'm engaged I'm so happy I wish you be there in my wedding but let see if by then you c...
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Dear Willmael;  I want to let you know that i'm engaged I'm so happy I wish you be there in my wedding but let see if by then you contact me i will like you to be there it will meant to world to me I miss you event when good things keep happening I miss you well baby boy until that day                                                                                                                                                                               i love you                        ...

and the time keep going and we are missing you!!!

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This is the month that you will eat lots of cakes, there is cakes all thru february to march lol I can say almost every weekend your niece Keyshlanie turn 2 tomorrow you would love her she is a lil tornado like you full of smiles hugs plays and there is no way you miss her in a room.Then your brother josh turn 16 but the biggest milestone is Jojo he is turning 18 and never the less his brother Giovanny turn 20 we love him here he is a nice guy. For march we got the march babies Roger Henry Rosaliz and Juan Isaac nearly all month birthdays birthdays. I wish i can be in yours to celebrate and give you hugs kisses and your present, you are getting so big i bet you look more handsome than before you have to be as tall as me hope you are doing good in school and in general i want you to be a good boy ok                                                      ...

Waiting for you Willmael Delgado : In one of the visitations at the ywca requested by...

Waiting for you Willmael Delgado : In one of the visitations at the ywca requested by... : In one of the visitations at the ywca requested by me to protect myself, because i was i have been accused of abusing my child during one o...
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In one of the visitations at the ywca requested by me to protect myself, because i was i have been accused of abusing my child during one of the transition visits to get my son Willmael home my son walks in the visitation room and in front of the visitation staff at that time Brenda Douglas. He said I hate you because you want to take me away from mommy and daddy (my son grandmother and her husband). At that moment something hit me a little boy using a big word like hate that strong and again I have never say to him you are coming to live with me none of that source of conversation  because I wanted to do something like that with his therapist I wanted to be careful of how i said to my child, me always walking on eggshells around my own son and there it was this persones teaching him things like hate enemies and how to be disconnected from his own mother I have ask why but in this crazy world and everything that goes on in it lots of evil have been done lots without a single expla...
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looking for ways to deal with the pain

It's been i while since the last time i sow my son Willmael but i have been dealing with it for a while lately i have been very depressed not my darkest moments but pretty deep there so i have been trying to establish something that works for me after a while of just seeings things all gray i need to get up and dust myself and keep going something i want you always to remember is "never give up on you" how you are going to better yourself is by just looking back acknowledging your mistakes and look for a way to make it better we need to better ourselves every day for as long we live we school ourself this entire life until we pass away because everything in this life is an experience we are not perfect so we must allow yourself to fail make mistakes somethings are only learn by making dose to adjust is a must because while we have this picture in our heads of the life we want to life will  always will throw you some curve balls things you never imagine will happen to us ...
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Here is some pics of your family Josh and Emy  close to bumble bee we will love you to join us one day next is your sister and niece then your grandfather and me your mom and chiko our dog there so many minutes that we will like to share with you as a member of our family good bad sad all that comes with it that what family we will love cry get upset support each other grow together we love you Willmael and we miss you and each of us deal in different ways and we all wait 

Waiting for you Willmael Delgado : “When I despair, I remember that all through histo...

Waiting for you Willmael Delgado : “When I despair, I remember that all through histo... : “When I despair, I remember that all through history the way of truth and love have always won. There have been tyrants and murderers, and f...
“When I despair, I remember that all through history the way of truth and love have always won. There have been tyrants and murderers, and for a time, they can seem invincible, but in the end, they always fall. Think of it--always.”  ―  Mahatma Gandhi love always wins because there is no distance there is no pain there is no sickness there no evil nether walls that can stop love, love will survive time trials battles and wars physical or spiritual way love never dies and stay with us for ever So i thing i can say son i have learn to love in the distance because there are people taking us apart but i will wait until for ever for you love mom

Waiting for you Willmael Delgado : Dear Willmael is been a year three months since i ...

Waiting for you Willmael Delgado : Dear Willmael is been a year three months since i ... : Dear Willmael is been a year three months since i last sow your sweet face i miss you as i write to you my hearth sinks i wish it was possib...
Dear Willmael is been a year three months since i last sow your sweet face i miss you as i write to you my hearth sinks i wish it was possible to me to see you i try trust me every day to deal with it some days better than other but a day like to today not that good i wish i can be with you with all my hearth but for now this is the only way writing to you to let you know i don't ever forget you until you let them know you want you can tell any one teacher a therapist and me i will go to court in a hearth bit my darling boy i will go when ever you say so. Remember you can see me when ever you want to just write to me i be here always waiting for you PS don't let anyone intimidate you if any one does do tell someone because that is a form of child abuse speak up don't let no one bully you to do things you don't want to do and remember always I LOVE YOU

Waiting for you Willmael Delgado : Steve Miller, MD., and Linda Kase Gottlieb, LMFT, ...

Waiting for you Willmael Delgado : Steve Miller, MD., and Linda Kase Gottlieb, LMFT, ...

Steve Miller, MD., and Linda Kase Gottlieb, LMFT, on Parental Alienation...

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Yes this behavior have a name

This is a 10 year old situation I have thought many things about it, that she was just scare of  Willmael not loving her like she wanted him to (a mother) not for what she is his grandmother, other moments I have thought it was to work to her advantage because her husband fall in love with little kids for example his ex-wife use baby sit a little boy they toke him to vacation to Puerto Rico just because, she had study him for years before even married him she knew how to milk him out just because he love kids he was her best friend husband, some other times i think because i told her she created the monster her son was and she make him so dysfunctional to society she did a poor job as a mother to her own kids and she wanted to re-do her wrongs but the ultimate reason she is an evil narcissistic person who rejoice in taking over peoples lives with any remorse.When  I started researching if the intimidation she have been doing to my son  is a kind of child abuse a...

oh how i hate being so close to you but yet no able to be as close i want

i was so close to you my baby boy but i feel like a big bolder sink my hearth not being able to give you the love i want to give to you maybe one day i can sit with you and see why of all  until then i love you for ever

after Christmas 2004

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                                  Another dairy entry December 25, 2004 Today was the first time i have seen you after three months the you where in Puerto Rico it was an especial moment but i guess because you don't see me on a regular basis you don't recognize me and that hurt i hope God helps me to one day have you back you look just like your father  i love you baby with all my hearth Mom What is not write in here is that after that visit i call your grandmother and she said she was going right back to Puerto Rico and she was going to stay there for good that i was never going to see you ever again i lose it i feel and i still feel that i fail you and your brothers because they where part of me they where being attack too i cut not protect them i cut not protect you post par-tum depression feeling alone and b...
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Another dairy entry this time it was a few weeks after your first birthday party  Willlmael after your birthday past like two weeks and your grandmother told me she was going to Puerto Rico because of her father was suppose to be sick she left and when it past a three weeks i got mad and ask her why she haven't come back she said when ever she feel like it that i sing over the rights and that i no longer can decide over you. When i sing does papers was because your father have left me i was only getting 300 dollars a month and was doing really bad i did want you to suffer and being in need here. She told me that she need it total custody because of Sec 8 didn't want to give her a room for you so you be comfortable when i go to work and she lie. Now she is saying that when you grow up she is going to tell you that i din't want you that is a lie i miss you every day i cry for you and i love you like that first day that i sow your little face i alway...

parental alienation is child abuse

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Parental alienation is a form of child abuse when a kid fear that if he like his mother the be consequences, ask for secrecy to hide that he like her or he had fun and he fear reprehension, act one way when he in present of alienator and another when this person is not there. To always look for aproval in the alienator before he respond and react to any kind of questions or invitations  Is abuse if is inflicted fear in order not to talk about the parent or say was his wanted to say all studies have show this kids become adults with emotional traumas. Know why the courts, therapist and social services don't intervene is this type of abuse they need to investigate this cases they can't just turn a blind eye just because no visible to them and don't see it mean is not there, they need to take lie detectors as prove to court when parents are accuse of abuse they need to have psychologist train to identify this behavior from alienator and child other wise this kids are a...

Happy new year dear Willmael

Dear Willmael you don't know how much i wanted to kiss you and wish you a happy new year to give you my blessings and to let you know how much i love you. You are that missing puzzle piece of my hearth i will never stop waiting for you Te amo and there is no distance and people that can stop me from loving you i want you to know that... First Corinthians 12:4-8 “ Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things .” Amen